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many a times..
when u want things to go a certain way,.. it dosen't
when u want things to work out,... it dosen't
when u want someone to listen,.. he/she isn't there
when u feel that the whole world is upon u...u need a shoulder.. where is he/she??
when u wait for things to happen.. it dosen't
when u try to make things happen.. it backfires..
blehz.. me n my wonderful theories again.. haiz.. wad ever.. talking nonsense.. at least i must sae.. that in here.. im able to sprout nonsense!!.. hahah..
well done.. i saw the ceremony of yet another tie that bound them together.. it was my cousin's wedding yesterdae.. n they were happy.. the pictures of them showed that they were indeed loving n the fact that they chose one another as their life partners to walk down the red carpet together to share weal n woes together in future gave them the reason to tie the knot..
is there a motive in doin certain things?? i was thinking to myself.. hmm.. what are the reasons for two to come together n eventually tie the knot?? fate u would sae that will bring two together.. so close so so close.. but does one want something out of another.. or is it just pure love?? when two becomes one.. will they get sick of one another.. ppl come together as gf bf.. then they decide to break coz they feel that the other is not for them.. why started??... then they would go on searching for another.. or wait for another to come.. but but.. ppl come together to seek love? to seek companionship?? afraid to be lonely?? to seek to seek to seek.. what do couples do when they decide to come together.. to go on dates.. to watch a movie.. to have a chat over dinner.. or simply have a slow romantic walk along the beach.. then .. when they get tired of one another.. they propose a break.. either both parties get upset about it or simply just let go hoping for the best for the other party... n go one searching for another one.. when someone initiates a break does it hurt? do u realise that the other party may be even more hurt??
what's all this mannz.. i dun understand.. i won't... haiz.. love come n go.. is it just so simple?? is it just a game? whereby when get tired so sick of the other party that u decide to stop the game.. but if u feel that u can continue playing for the rest of ur life.. u make a vow.. to stay together for the rest of ur life.. to set up a family.. is love supposed to be sweet?so sweet that the ants would come crawling all over? :) or bitter :(.. its common that ppl quarrel over certain issues.. but is it right to fight over what may seem so trival to a third party.. n cause a breakup.. then in the beginning.. y did the two even decide to become gf n bf?? situations occurs.. ppl sae things.. but.. if the two r really sticked together like a superglue.. then.. it may last forever..
anyway.. for all that decides to become gf n bf.. think carefully.. that person is not perfect... for everyone isin't.. love is all about giving n taking?? love is all about sharing?? love is all about being together?? love is all about mutual attraction?? love is all about forgiving?? what's the definition of LOVE?? probably different people would have different perspectives of love.. the perfect man or woman may just be round the corner.. would u notice him/her?.. do u dare go up to him/her?.. do u want to spend time effort n money on him/her?
i pray that everyone that is together now.. just started to be gf n bf that they would be loving n that they would think carefully about the choices they make.. if it had been difficult to be with the one that u wantn if u two had come together.. cherish it..
for those that had tied the knot.. or are preparing to tie the knot.. both of u had made that decision.. stand by it.. stand strong together... till the dae that both are out of time.. that their love for one another be long lasting.. being together.. forever n ever...
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had a long dae.. at work n back home having class as usual.. i wanna them to do well.. but i get negative feedbacks n stuff.. wad am i to do? i want to help..is it all to waste? pls.. some one .. give me a direction.. i have planned everything.. its up to them to work.. if they would not listen.. am i to blame? what am i to do.. no results=bad teacher?? TRUE?? oh no...
was super duper dreamy in office todae.. nothing much to do.. thoght much.. think its better not to think so much.. think also will not happen.. think also will not change anything.. thats wad she said.. thks fer that larx.. anyway.. its quite true.. she said that i sld just take things as it comes.. i tld her about this blog thingy.. she felt that it was not very right to do so.. well done.. so where am i supposed to say anything?? hmm.. i told her that just anyone wld be a passerby to me.. just like what i had told cher before.. right? n i still am sticking to this stand.. she was suprised.. she said that no matter there wld be some one for everyone.. just anyone.. regardless of age or wadever.. she was so so lost for word when i said that.. haha.. common larx.. dunnoe larx.. but she said more true for guys.. like ok lor.. wad ever.. ha.. she said not to keep everything to oneself.. for it is bad.. i dunnoe larx.. hai..
sad sad dae.. im in a daze..
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oh great salesman are earning tons n TONS of commisions larx.. so so jealous.. coz there were just so so many cases todae.. so so many files.. stacking here n there.. all thanks to my nimble hands.. haha..OOPS! i finished the whole stack really fast.. tu tu train.. ha.. good good.. happy..
had lunch with geraldine todae.. n we talked about stuffs larx.. like never before.. juz felt like taking things to her.. scared she hear until sian r.. all about my da dao le's n all my craappy nonsense.. thks gal.. asked her what sld i do.. dunnoe.. seems so lost.. dunnoe which path to take.. which path to embark.. it seems like im on a cross road leading to somewhere ahead.. maybe one that leads to a dead end.. another to success.. another to yet another cross road!! gosh.. n life seemed so aimless n meaningless for a moment.. to think or not to think.. its just a matter of time.. im stuck to earth.. im not in space.. thinking of a way to survive.. not a star.. thinking how to shine brightly.. im just a puny little gal.. sitting here by the bedside.. dunnoe to see things happen? wait for things to happen? or make things happen?? oh no.. LOST in LaLa LAND... life's a mystry.. life's a misery.. life's a joy..
R called n i finally told him how i felt.. its really a bit of a rush.. he's pushy..he said that time is not a factor... n asked what do i want to hear from him.. i really DUNNOE!! im not like really in need of a someone that badly.. had not been in a real one.. and am not really looking fer one.. though he had knocked on the door.. i told him that friends we wld be.. juz that? he asked.. i dunnoe wad to sae larx.. then he asked me to put myself in his shoes.. getting 'dunnoe' 'see first' 'think so' as answers.. he also finds it frustrating.. sorry.. he also apoligised again n i said that it wld do no help larx.. he did wad he did le n said what he said.. he wants to have things my way.. friends we wld be.. thats what he said finally le.. then he asked y i didn even acknowledge that he is there all the time.. i alwaes ignored him.. hai.. dunnoe wad to sae larx.. im supposed to greet u? to sae hi huh.. thats all that u ask for.. well.. of course can larx.. we r like friends wad.. can! ha.. then we had a good chat ba.. getting nowhere.. getting answers that are just so ambigus.. hai.. sorry.. but u noe my stand.. as of now.. FRIANDS.. kay.. dun get too upset over this larx..
everything's like thaking a train.. trying to run me down.. seeing ppl getting into a realationship.. hoping to get care n concern from one another.. getting all messed up with life for his/her life revolves around only him/her.. hai.. then what about other friends?? someone has a someone out there for him/her.. when time comes they will meet.. but is it meant to be a quick n fast one? a slow n romantic one? do gals noe wad guys want? do guys noe wad gals want? does 'sorry' mean anything in a realationship when one does wrong?... hai...
IS LOVE ALL ABOUT A LIE???
all u'de wanna noe
today had been a rather boring dae.. for i had driving in the morning.. did not have class in the afternoon.. like well done larx.. coz she said that she were goin wth her parents to buy some furniture or some sort.. ya.. coz she juz shifted house.. n guess wad,.. since her dad is a interior designer.. he had designed the house! like how cool can that get lar.. hor. haha.. so boring lar.. did not have anything to do.. felt so lethargic n wad ever.. didn wanna do anything.. in the end.. poor mummy had to clean the whole house yet to noe that her bones r so so goin to break le.. well done r.. tell u dun work sso hard le.. u could have driven me out of bed to help.. or screamed at me so that i would not be a lazy pig lazying on my comfy bed.. lolx.. anyway.. huggs.. u had alwaes did everything u could to get things goin.. to get things done.. well is that what mothers do..!! OMG!! then wad would be of me in future?? wahahah..
am so so goin to back date coz had not been bloggin for long.. had been tired.. busy.. yest had a rather long dae though i had only one class.. poor wendy is sick mah.. tt means no pay yet.. haha.. anyway had driving in the mornin.. n think was fine larx.. the instructor's name is michael i think he so quite de.. sae some of my mistakes nia.. never keep on bugging me.. i mean telling me that im wrong larx.. or maybe coz too good le.. haha.. u're right.. no lor.. think he is juz like tt not like others who wld be so so eager to tell me anything n everything.. haha.. thanks r.. kekz.. dunnoe which is better lor.. anyway then had lesson.. then coz it was 'R' birthdae we went out.. n luckily he liked that present larx.. if not it wld be terrible.. its quite expensive though.. haha.. then he sent me back again.. n asked me again.. im sorry but not now.. u said that its ur birthdae wish.. i dunnoe if it will come true.. i noe that everyone is not perfect n i can't expect a perfect u.. but noe wad?? i think i dun really noe u as yet.. n some times i think to myself.. its like there is no common ground or anything that there is to talk about n of course i dun wanna talk abt work for ive been like at it for like five daes.. imagine talking abt it for another two? i've had enough larx.. pls.. u brought me round n round.. alamak.. not romentic lar.. u noe there wld be alot of ppl maybe can book a place some where mah.. hor? ai yo.. oh well never mind.. maybe im askin too much...dinner was good.. food was nice.. but sorry lei.. not now.. really n i also feel that we do not really click lei.. alamak.. hai yoz.. u called many times.. asked if i was angry fer wad u had done.. i wonder y do u wanna get hold of me so fast so quick? haiz.. though im not really angry but am kinda put off larx.. u alwaes wanna do things ur way..i dunnoe larx.. u said u were sorry.. u noe wad.. u said that too many a times.. n that it wld not hold any meanin le.. anyway enough of ur nonsense.. u've grown one year older.. must dong shi worz.. yo lor.. that's all i wanna sae to u..
ho ho.. some ppl got accpted by ntu le lor.. wei qin.. congrats r.. ha.. ya lo.. am still waitin waitin waitin for mine.. haiz.. n ppl are all goin for their interview le .. me.. am goin for the one at MOE.. hmm.. to be a teacher or not to be.. that's the question i must answer.. gosh.. i dunnoe lei.. i asked joyce.. thks fer ur opinion r.. think this fri i ownself go ba? ha.. i must be brave.. must be strong.. no one will fight the battle except myself.. its my third choice.. n they sent me a letter for an interview.. well done manz.. hope for the best ba.. that i won stammer stutter or wad ever on that dae.. haha.. im given a chance some where some what.. so am goin to treasure it.. go for it.. n who noes.. may be accepted by MOE then decide if im really goin to take that path.. to be a TEACHER!! hey hey.. then call me MISS YEO huh.. haha..
a horrible day..
well done mannz.. omg.. today was the most horrible dae ever since i started work larx.. dunnoe wads wrong with me.. juz felt like everythings wrong! i wonder why.. wahaha.. anywayz.. took the same bus as usual to work todae.. n guess wad.. that guy r.. wahaha.. stared at me for a while n then smiled.. stunned i was.. like hello!wad sia?? haha.. then grace messeged me telling me that she was not comin to work.. alamak.. sick! hai yoz.. see larx.. work too hard le.. no rest moreover.. priya had been on one week's leave!.. then i was at office only to find out that priya was not there!! omg.. scared the wits out of me larx.. if it were the case i would be so so dead! for there would be tons n i mean TONS of work to do.. so i told lay suan that if she was confirm not to be here i would not be here tml larx.. then she laughed.. OMG!! wohoo.. luckily.. priya was back after her long long one week break.. wohoo.. had fun huh? while poor me n grace slooging away? now that she's sick do u belief me now? wahahah.. lolx.. ya.. then the horibble dae started with faxes that are never ending.. files files files n MORE green file for that matter.. so hmm.. am i supposed to hate green now? ha.. so much updating to do.. so many files to find.. so many things to type! omg.. i not a robot.. towards the end of the dae i told priya i wanted to quit le larx.. im really really tired having to noe that those doing checklist are like having a good time chatting.. reading.. n wad not.. goin to the toilet like a million times..?? IM TIRED.. SICK N TIRED! of what i am doin.. gosh! n guess wad i still haf like two more months there.. like.. seriously feeling under paid for what im doin larx.. i noe that its not fair larx.. right from the dae i started for those doin checklist had a great time for they r not a stress, not as tired.. i had been running the whole of the office to find files for sickening people.. n to find out that there are so many repeated faxes! aye.. u noe wad u all faxing anot? juz tired of everything n they r juz so so free.. its really not worth it larx.. i must sae.. having to work in that department.. having to put up with juz so so much.. n having to take so much stress.. IM TIRED.. that was not the end of my dae.. for i had to rush to city hall to meet cher they all.. guess wad! its cher's birthday tml.. happy birthday.. wad did u wish for? ha.. to quickly get a BF right.. haha.. OOPS! cannot sae wait never come true u will come n find me.. haha.. anyway may all ur wishes come true worz.. n hope u like that chicken little.. then it will remind u of me! ha.. had a great time larx.. though i didn sae much.. but seeing how happy all of u were.. it juz made me feel that maybe that's wad friends are for? ha.. hey gal.. i noe u may read this so.. thks for the treat huh.. or maybe it was on ur dad? hmm.. i dunnoe.. wad ever the case.. the food tasted GREAT!! well done manz.. then.. was on the way back... out of the MRT.. when this low dark voice said "QU NA LI?" omg.. so scary larx.. i screamed.. then like the whole world's lookin... oops.. anyway maxi also heared lor.. so scary can.. it was like so hard.. so deep.. n so so colse.. OMG! ha.. anyway that was my dae larx.. n so.. it ends with another full stop.. i thought to my self.. why work so hard.. u r only a temp.. then again. u r obviously under paid.. ya ya.. wad ever larx.. hai yoz.. think so much for wad? juz live off the next two mths manz.. its really comin to an end le.. reallly.. then back to school??lolz.. anyway nicholas was back with vic n the other two gals like yest.. stunned.. suddenly i heard that familier voice calling me REDS again larx.. ha.. then again.. suprised.. i told priya.. coz she saw that sweet on the table then i sae is he gif one.. she sae.. there must be some love potion in there larz.. alamak.. the bee .. the pollen?? hai yoz.. u r.. anywayz.. nic.. goin NS this fri le hor.. that is like tML?? ha.. all the best worz.. come out strong n ft huh.. :)
he called.. its his birthday this sat.. so he said to meet like on fri? after work.. then it was all planned.. i sae OK.. then he called to sae that last min his friends that agreed to be with him on sat night last min cancel the thing.. so there is an empty slot.. he doesn't like it n thus change our meeting to sat night like after my class.. like u noe that i would be tired larx.. anyway.. wads all this larx.. then i jokinly say that u can stay at home n sleep then.. then dun go out larx.. wa lao.. take me for a substitute huh.. juz dun wanna be lonly right.. thats how i feel now u noe.. u said that i would not be a substitute.. that u wld be good.. is this all a lie.. i dun like it larx.. though u call the shots for its ur birthday.. but dun u think its abit too much.. shuo hao le on fri.. then u tell me sat coz ur friend ling shi shuang yue?? wad?? i dunnoe larx.. maybe this wld be the last time i pei u go out le .. i dunnoe larx.. we will see about that.. dun think he is a very sensitive guy larx.. like hello.. wad sia.. dun even noe wad u r talking about.. dun u realise that u could not get me for like a very long time.. that something was wrong? i did not pick up ur call? i dunnnoe larx.. confused n tired... dun wanna think tooo much le.. anywayz.. okok wadever...gtg..
yet another dae...
yes yes.. n i went driving again todae.. had fun.. ! yeappie.. but im still so so far away from my liscense! gosh!! when can i get it?? i wan i wan! went to church yest with M, jia ying .. ya.. n the other jia ying got baptised.. its a once in a year thingy.. ya.. n so cool larx.. ppl like went down the pool of water.. the prist sae some stuff.. n they walk out a brand new person .. a new beginning.. a new start to everything for the water has clensed their sins n washed all away their past.. the come out with a new name... a new beginning.. her name is kristine.. if im not worng.. i noe that she is happy.. she made her decison.. went for it.. had a new bginning.. a brand new life.. walking the path alongside him.. making everyday a fulfilling dae.. congrats gal.. though i dunnoe u larx.. for that matter.. haha.. i tagged de mah.. kekz.. ya lo.. congrats..
todae was my ninth lesson.. im still so so slow.. when will i ever finish.. haha.. anyways had booked all the days for my driving till like june.. so yep yep.. will be busy till then.. like sat sun.. sat sun.. ya ya.. so if ppl out there wanna book me.. muz be at night le wor.. but the thing is that i may be darn tired after all the running here n there.. ya lo.. coz still having classes with my students.. good good.. at least u did me proud.. ms yap.. kekz.. r u happy? u got ur a le.. continue to work.. u can do it de.. u r smart de lor.. haha.. so ur A's will alwayes be with u but pls r.. dun start to be proud n get ur A's too for my tests hor.. dun gu fu me.. haha..
talked to M n was like she said that M also has a friend like that n she alwaes tell her that she don wanna go lor.. so ya.. maybe i sld shue ta?? haha.. anwayes.. S called again.. ask me to go like so so many times le.. but u noe gal.. im super duper BUSY!! haha..
okok... well done.. im so so goin to be broke larx.. having to pay for so so many things. all that i had worked for is GONE!! like so so fast.. coz.. of my driving.. n i recently bought tops n skirts again.. haha.. but i like mah?? wahaha.. but its all gone le.. n the thing is that its so many ppl's birthdae this week! goodness!! another hole in my pocket.. wahahha.. ya.. so i wanna wish.. hmm.. let me see who first.. eh.. cherene! HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAE!! EvOn.. HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAE!! n RyAN! HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAE.. like well done i have to get so so many presents.. wahahha.. n cakes.. haha.. oh no.. n i must declare! im fat so.. i shall live on fruits like for one week of lunch?? haha.. we'll see about that anyway ya ya.. yet another busy week.. see larx.. so many parties to attend.. so many things to attend to.. well done! haha.. so thats it fer now larx.. com had been down for so long.. n so.. im here once again.. signing of...
well well..
one conclusion.. one don't seek love but seek to be loved.. u've gotta wait.. love is all about a two way traffic.. one way doesn't work.. giving it all will be tiring.. so will be the one recieving it all.. if both parties are willing to sacrifice.. to be willing to give and take.. to share weals and woes together.. then.. go ahead.. go and be together.. but not till u've tried.. how would u noe that it will work or not!! OoI!! what are u doin??wake up! dun hurt him!...im really confused.. i dunnoe what am i doin.. am i giving out the wrong signals?? but what do i feel deep down?? GosH.. this is so so terrible.. went out with R today he said that he wanted me to pei him.. dunnoe go where.. then i felt sian.. so decided to go lor.. called him at 615.. wahaha.. like so sudden.. ooPs.. sorry r.. i made up my mind last min.. so sorry.. n u'de to rush fer me.. SORRY.. then we went to bugis.. fer dinner.. walked round and round till i said i wanted to go home.. hoho.. kk.. so its my treat uh? kekz.. coz so many ppl wanted to draw money larx.. i didn wan to wait lor.. so sian.. haha.. food was good.. but super filling..:) then he sent me home again.. i said no need le.. but.. ya lor.. thanks r.. alamak.. ur house not say very near here lor.. u r.. ai yo.. kekz.. anyway.. wad did u call me in the bus.. heLLO!! like i told u not to call me that le lor.. u said that there was other motive than to watch a movie.. u so so wanted to catch one.. but. im so so tired.. sorry.. it seems like u want all of me.. please.. oh plase.. don't eat me up! ahha.. haha.. joking larx.. u asked if we could only be friends and i said ya.. were u dishartened.. ai yo.. im really sorry.. i dunnoe wad am i seeking for.. what exactly do i want!!?? dunnoe if i did the right thing to go out with u but ur msg later sounded that u r feeling super low.. with things happening in ur family.. i dun wan to talk about it but.. u must take care wor.. i dunnoe wad he did.. ur mum muz be super upset since that time u msged hor? i pray that ur family will be fine that everything goes on well n though u all may be affected by it.. stay strong.. family ties matters kay.. im a nobody to interfear but.. take care worz..
i saw my cuz blog.. like she was called down for the uni interview le.. ai yo.. when's mine? kekz.. how long more must wait? humm...dun wanna think too much.. maybe not yet ba.. but i truly hpoe that i have a place somewhere.. somewhat ba.. anyway girl.. all the best for the interview wor.. see larx.. one so so lucky gal.. n may jolly well just go into doin econs larx.. wahahha.. so good!
had a great dae at office once again.. so fun so fun.. haha... coz?? its priya's birthday tml! kekz.. n guess wad.. i brought a cake to office early in the morning n i was so so early can!~ i promise i was larx.. even angeline asked me huh? so early r? whahaha.. yes angie.. coz i had a motive mah.. i went there early just to find out that u were doin second shift larx.. whahah.. u good.. never even tell me? huh? anyway i hoped that u did enjoy yourself ba hor n enjoy those sweet chocolates.. its a gift from the bottom of our hearts.. haha.. from me n grace.. ps.. i hope u like it! kekz.. anyway up till now u still dun wanna let me noe wads 'sae boh' lars.. u good.. keep on calling me n grace by that.. uh? anyway.. u had fun right.. kekz.. well done.. wee wei sae that priya can share what sweet things happened in the office n that ants will come crawling larx.. like well done mannz.. haha... joker larx u.. hah! its victor's last dae le.. he's goin to ploly like on mon. so fast manz.. didn had the time to talk to u.. anyways.. all the best worz.. in wad ever u do.. muz rem me huh? haha.. the joker? oopS!!
gonna have another long dae tml.. like tution tution tution.. do i have time for myself? haha.. good question manz.. one to five.. with the cool ppl in office.. so so happening.. then six n seven.. all fer the four of u? where is mine? n R u asked if i was free.. do u hear that im super duper busy? u're wondering whether i could find some time for u nots rite? haha.. anyway u think i dunnoe r..wahaha.. ur collegue if im not wrong sam.. make u very pai seh hor.. call u from the opposite bus stop n dunnoe talk wad nonsense.. haha.. k larx.. thats it fer now.. am gonna rest for tml.. yep yep.. n guess wad its lala's birthdae toDAY!! congrats manz lala.. haha.. po is still younger.. kekz.. see...:) smilez.. hope that u had a great dae.. dunnoe if u r still in spore.. or only goin off next year.. juz to earn some money now.. for ur uni education overseas.. anyway.. yep all the best n HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! one year older le wor.. haha. see i didn forget kay.. i still rem.. its ur birthday.. u were born on this dae.. on this earth just to meet po.. to make tution last year so happening.. haha.. thanks huh.. yep.. 19 already.. may all ur wishes come true.. n may u be prettier by the daes..
whO Am I??
many thoughts in mind once again.. as i walked alone.. back home after driving.. just felt like walking.. down that road.. which has like 'NO END'... my motive was to go there to get some exam papers but the vendor was not there so.. another time bah!
as i walked past buildings, i noe that she has grown.. from a tiny nobody to what it is todae.. 'she' has made herself heard in the world today.. thanks to many whome had put in much efforts to bring about this.. to whome i must give thanks to able to sit down here n pour my thoughts out.. they had truly made a difference.. otherwise i wouldn't be here in my warm little cosy place typing typing typing...
she said that she needed him.. she said that she wanted all of him.. that she is ill now.. she needs his shoulders to lean on, to cry on.. she said that he's the one.. but right now that she is sick where is he? she is alone.. is she afriad? she said that she wants to marry him n he is the one.. is he aware of that? he books out n has little time for her.. he has his own friends whome he cannot do without too.. he has to spend time with his family too.. there are so many what if's in her mind.. is she able to take it? there r little SMSes from him.. she feels that he either dosen't care or that he is really busy.. what's all this mannz.. i noe that u r putting up a strong front.. but deep inside u, u r afriad.. u can give up just anything for the sake of him.. u said that if he gets into the uni.. he would have many other choices.. oh no.. then how? r u goin to continue studying? to go overseas? or to continue with what u have as of now? is it good enough? u get jealous because of things.. i dun blame u for u have the right to... i do not have much say in this because it concerns only the two of u.. i am just a passerby lookin at things.. juz want to share my thoughts.. u have done many things for the sake of him.. does he noe.. i pray that everything is still well between the both of u.. that he will spend more time with u.. if u think he is worth wad u r doing then go ahead.. but he should not n will not stop loving you if he truly loves u.. then again is there really true love on earth? i wonder.. i pray that he will treat u fair n well.. that he will take care of you.. forever.. that he will stay true to u.. now n forever.. that he will spend the rest of his life with u n love you as much as u love him..
i read many blogs recently n many are facing relationship problems.. wads all this mannz?? is there something wrong some where? both parties do not want to gif in? or is it that u had let him or her go so that she or he will be happy.. but u end up suffering.. wHATS ALL THIS!!??
i wonder who am i to sae so much? who am i to give opinions? just who am i?? so many questions no answers.. probably thats life mannz.. with so many uncertainties.. u have to take the gamble n move on.. u will not noe till u've tried.. but when u fall u must get back on ur feet stand strong n continue.. time does not stop.. the min n sec hand does not stop moving unless the battey had failed to give them power.. but otherwise.. the clock is constantly ticking.. there is no way that one can turn back time.. just NO WAY!! if everyone wants to speak their minds, everyone wants to voice their opinions.. WHO LISTENS?? i wonder n i ponder???.... everyone has a sae in anything n everthing.. i do have to but.. sometimes.. people have to just listen.. listen to what others have to say..
everyone will be alone some time some dae.. n i really mean it.. i walk past the streets n see that many r alone.. be it to waiting for the bus or just having a stroll along the road some have a partner with them.. some have many friends around them but face the fact.. somewhat u'll be alone.. thus i tell myself not to be afriad .. that everyone faces this.. when the sun's up, ur shadow will be with you.. but when the sun's gone.. who will be with u? r u afriad to be in the dark.. i must not be.. i must stand strong.. still in search of my true self.. what do i want in life actually?? what do i want to do?? what do i want to become?? what do i see myself in like ten years down the road?? i will be alone.. but will i find a partner who is willing to share weal n woe with me?? what will i become?? what will people take me for?? what will people see me as?? what will.. what will.. what will.. WHO AM I??
wohoo..
had dinner at ps cartel with shots todae.. omg.. am super full now.. todae is april fool's dae n wahlah.. as usual lame ppl talkin lame stuff.. laughing our heads off.. had fun.. but did'n had the mood to really pei ta men feng lorz.. sorry ya.. coz am super duper tired.. haha.. see larx.. i still made the effort to be there kay.. cher.. that dae is free huh? haha.. tts good.. 10am to 10 pm.. everything will be on u huh.. see larx.. so so goin to turn 19 le huh.. old le sia.. oops.. older than me by a few mths onli.. better not sae so much.. haha..
had two classes todae.. the she is a smart gal lorx.. wahaha.. still need me?? anywaes.. noe that she can do it de.. yea mannz.. all the way girl.. wendy huh?? yep yep.. see i rem english names well.. this comin tue's test all the best worz.. come back with full marks r?? haha.. :)
really had a busy dae todae lorz.. sorry J i really couldn't make it.. ya? stop calling me psk larx.. wa liu.. make me feel so so bad lor.. ho ho.. i already apologise le huh?
yet another long dae tml ba.. havin driving.. then class.. am really lookin forward.. i wanna DRIVE!! yea mannz.. kekz.. though it may be tough.. n alwaes stressed up when driving.. for i dunnoe wad reason.. I MUST get my lisence like before aug lor.. MUST!! before my B DAE!! let tt be my present lor.. from erm.. myself.. haha.. i wan my LISENCE..! :)
oh.. before i end.. shirley.. THANK U!! thanks for the help for the apprisal.. am i supposed to treat u coffee?? haha.. prob when its my last dae be.. will gif everyone tarts or something.. haha.. then everyone will be happy huh.. thanks thanks.. kekz.. finally everything is settled.. all settled.. am realived.. no more worries for now thats for sure till like june or july when the results are out ba?? for now.. im a happy bird.. but soon to come those four are gonna have their exams le.. i must achieve.. they must achieve.. i'll do my best.. u all must put in ur utmost efforts too hor?...dun dissapoint me.. yep yep.. signing off le.. to prepare for another busy dae..
