LuV MakEs ThE WorlD Go RoUnD

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good times bad times...

its now or never thats what they said..

so what's my decision??...

i have heard so so much.. but what struck me was when she asked.. had u heard anything good about him? i said no.. how about bad things? i said yes.. whats all this mann.. im feeling so so terrible.. its not that i dun want to believe you but there is a problem some how.. i dunnnoe how to put it.. is it just me or the pressures around? i really dunnoe.. should everything come to an end? u asked if i would give u another chance.. whether i should listen to every one else? it seems like the world knows about it. big boss noes?? oMG im just a small little fry there.. yet it seems like all eyes are on me.. stop it! am i to blame? they say that he is flirt.. he sayes that he has changed and will do anything for me.. is that right? are they all lies? if i were to leave which is like soon.. will he continue...?? it seems lik he already has a BAD reputation there.. BosS noe about it.. she wants to talk to him.. priya is like protecting me.. she does not want him to come over like ever again.. he already got complained that he came here just too too often.. everyone around me tells me something.. who am i to believe.. i am just a small little girl dunnoe from where some little girl that do not know what is love.. the feeling to love to give n take n the feeling of being loved.. why must all this happen.. what is WRONG?

it seems like history repeate itself.. ry said it once.. now..j also tells me the same thing.. p tells me to give him everything back.. all those things that supposed to be for me.. those things that were meant to be for our first month together.. yet.. it is left in one corner of the office.. unattended.. un touched.. feeling cold n lonely.. take it back ba.. but u said that its for me.. whether i want to throw it away or to keep it its mine le.. so..

u said it first then said sorry.. what do u think i am.. a toy to be played or fooled around.. do u even cherish me? if u don't just as well.. i will not.. its not worth it.. its not like its the end of the world p said.. ry,e,jh they all told me that there would be even more in time to come.. that he is not worth my time.. blah blah blah.. u said the four letter word.. 'wtf u want from me??' u scolded me.. u sort of shouted at me.. u tugged me.. u try to pull me away.. OUCH!

maybe we were not ment to be together in the first place.. remembering that i kinda asked that some one to give me strength to tell me if he is the right one .. n the very next dae.. i heard all that.. so what does that mean?? he is telling me to stay away from u.. we are not supposed to be together.. we shoulden't have started much less say ended..

put the past behind n move on with him? or continue to live in my own fantasy.. my own world where no one is there? where i am all alone again.. alone n afraid.. alone but happy.. all because i need not worry.. worry about so many things.. worry if u would seek another n throw me away.. worry if u would be true to me.. worry if u would hurt me.. maybe i should learn to let go.. GET A LIFE!! let him go.. maybe someone out there is better suited for him.. im not.. the happy times together.. yet a sad ending? all because of gossips? all because i don't trust u? all because.. u r like a wolf in a sheeps clothing..

probably time is all i need... to forget.. to let go.. to set myself free..

posted by MaGdE @ 6:18 PM