i seriously dunnoe what is up on his mind..
im not his no one..
always quesitioning myself if what i have is enough..
questioning myself if im done with his nonsense..
if i did not see that tag on fb maybe ill feel better..
you were sleeping..
so everything else comes before me and you are happy with just that..
you do not have anything to say to me..
the amount of messages only goes to show how much you think of me..
are you on holidays?
so you need time to rest n recuperate.. to recharge for a more challenging year ahead..
skl term i dun get to see you much.. n i dun get to do so even when you are having your vacation..
im really dissapointed.. to the extent that im really tired tired of all this nonsense............................. i truly am..
im really going to go boonkers soon.. i dun have anyone to talk to.. no one knows my plight..
im sad.... im really sad.. sad and dissapointed i am..
am i supposed to pour my hearts out everynight before i sleep?
how foolish i am? for such a not so well deserving person..
why am i always thinking of him?
why am i putting myself in this?
why am i going through all this nonsense of yours?
why am i not given due appreciation care and concern.. n LOVE?
why am i doing so much for him.. to give him a suprise that will not be much appreciated?
why why why...
sooner or later.. i really will go crazy... :( :( :(
it had been empty for dunnoe how long.. im back again.. hehe.. lol.. cox its the hols.. so i shall update you! haha:)
ended exams.. so i have a break like finally!
went out to work for two days met a very interesting gal! haha.. she is just so ke ai man! we can like talk about anything even though i only know her for less than 12 hours! gosh.. not many ppl in the store so can lax abit.. haha! too bad i had to go off early! didn even get her no! alamak.! then again.. another passerby who came into my life..
a passerby we meet whenever we go to somewhere new.. whenever we see someone new..
a true companion is a rare gem... u really think that that someone will be there for you all the time? probably not.
hai.. had been using you to vent my frustrations on a not so sensitive person.. typing it out here could just be the solution.. hai!!..
so sad.. once again.. sad sad sad. how may buckets of tears must i pour out before you ever get it? ya.. im not your no. one piority.. your work is your friends is your fun is your religion is.. im probably ranked the last of the lot.. y isit like that .. isit really supposed to be like that? can someone tell me that im asking too much asking for the sky that he can't give? so that maybe i would not anyhow throw my temper so that maybe i will learn to ask for less so that maybe i will learn to accept that he has very little time for me leftovers are precious. im suppose to treat them like gem.. supposed to go out only when he is free otherwise i will think of him when i go out alone.. or may be with my friends.. he has already taken part of me. asking him if i should do this and that thinking that i would not have time for him if i had to work.. i asked him if i should.. putting him before me.. im probably stupid to do so.. he should belong to my last piority.. when i need him then i call upon him.. otherwise he can live in his own world n i can live happily in mine! what rubbish.. wun that just be friends.. what should i do?.... :( :( :(
